It's hard. She's heard all the words of comfort and knows there are people who have her back.
She is trying to pick up the pieces after her boyfriend of almost two years, rapper AKA, was shot and killed in a hit.
Rapper and media personality Nadia Nakai shared her pain with her fans, friends and followers about the murder of her rapper boyfriend AKA, born Kiernan Forbes.
Nadia and AKA had been together for just close to two years before he was fatally shot in Durban outside Wish restaurant while booked for a gig in the city on 10 February.
On her recent Instagram post she shared what she was struggling with.
“Sometimes I wish I never experienced your love. I wish that you were just an acquaintance, and I could say “Oh Supa Mega passed away, what a loss for the game”. If I didn’t love you, maybe it would be easier to continue my life without you. Now, because I had been loved by you, it’s just so hard. I have this hole in my heart that won’t let up. The world just doesn’t feel the same,” she wrote.
“I try to hold onto to my memories of when I was happy before you, maybe if I remember how it was before, I could be like that again. But everything doesn’t feel real. I don’t know if seeing you every day on social media is better or worse, I don’t know if reading our messages is healing or not. I know I need to get out my house soon, and I know the people that continue to hold me down, will be there for me, thank you, But I just feel like I’ll never be ready. What is my life going to look like now? time heals all, but time really takes it’s time, and I don’t know when I’ll ever be fine.”
She has received an outpouring of love from AKA family, fans and the mother of his child, DJ Zinhle.
